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Literature
They
Keep busy, they say
Don't dwell, they say
Just do, they say
Don't think, they say
It is so easy, to talk
So easy to observe
Easy to know 'everything'
To give advice
Not realizing
I try to stay busy
I do my best to not dwell
It's not easy
I can't just do and not think
Believe me, I've tried
Creating helps
Writing, painting, drawing
Great outlets
Working myself half to death
Perfect for blocking
But motivation disappears
Lack of creativity
Sinking in
Mundane jobs don't help
When you lie awake
Fatigue doesn't matter
If you can't sleep
Smiling won't work
But it fools
Fake laugh, they're at ease
They're satisfied
Thinking 'she's ok'
Maybe they care
Maybe just self righteous
Either way, it's easier
I can't handle the looks
Dealt with long enough
They don't get it
Just talk, they swear
It gets better, they swear
Others have it worse, they swear
You're not alone or special, they swear
I've tried talking, doesn't help
When, when does it get better?
I know others have it worse
I know I'm not alo
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Literature
Bad Again
It starts out small
Something so simple
So pointless
Nothing
It's never really gone
Hiding behind smiles
Bursting out
Again
Gone for weeks, months
I'm safe, no
Bad again
Naturally
I know it's there
Everyone knows it
It's ignored
Always
Some are showing concern
I can't deny
Nor confirm
Lie
It will always be
Always bad again
Not alright
Pretending
I'm accustomed here alone
Not really, true
Feels like
Normal
Years pass on continuously
Life goes on
Blood flows
Out
I am still here
Still helpless alive
Never alone
Hatred
It's been bad again
Here for awhile
I'm fine
Promise
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Literature
Thank you for being there, my friend
It's ok, I'm alright
I know you're worried about my fight
But I'm so used to it, it's comical
The pain I feel, it's lyrical
I'm struggling now, it's true
But with every cut, I feel less blue
More red, yes
But less depressed
I'm sorry my self hate makes you sad
But it's not all bad
I'll be ok eventually
Albeit, reluctantly
I've never been normal or sane
I know this, and beat myself up in disdain
I hate speaking of my inner demons
They're always yelling, screaming
I feel if I talk, they win
I cry, they grin
I don't want to push that on anyone
It's why I lock myself away and run
I know you care, and only want to help
But please, don't worry yourself
I'm not something to dwell upon
I am only me, a no one
In this spiteful race
Nothing I can't face
I'll be ok, I'll be fine
Thank you though, for seeing the signs
I'm depressed again
But I thank you for being there, my friend
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Literature
Who Am I
I'm so confused
I feel so used
By no one
By everyone
I'm a barely breathing
Hopeless quivering
Walking contradiction
Of my minds restrictions
I can't figure out
What my life's about
How am I barely alive
But not ready to die
I want to
I'm almost through
But not now
Wow
I don't understand
No way I can
Not really
Touchy feely
Lovey dovey
Pushy shovy
Help me
Let me be
Sigh I just don't know
This blows
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Literature
One Lone Tear
One lone tear
It's all I'm allowed
My subconscious suppresses
The rest underneath
My veiled smile
Is hiding my shame
To those peering for a glimpse
My broken spirit
Faking hope
My speciality
Longing for peace
Exhausted my willpower
Defeated by time
Running out
One lone lonely tear
One last time
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Literature
Untitled
I'm spinning out of control
Away from myself
My hope
Life
I'm confused in my mind
Breaking up inside
Falling apart
Broken
I'm afraid of myself
Nothing seems ok
Losing life
Sad
I'm bleeding out again
I don't know why
What's wrong
Help
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Literature
You and Me again
You're searching for me again
Knock, knock, knocking
At my door
Haunting me forever more
You're whispering sweet tales again
Prod, prod, prodding
At my soul
Burning into me like coal
You're laughing at me again
Stab, stab, stabbing
At my psyche
Dissolving me into crazy
You're killing me again
Drown, drown, drowning
My mournful song
Destroying right from wrong
You're guiding me again
Slash, slash, slashing
My hurt away
Ignoring what protests say
You're winning again
Hate, hate, hating
My life again
Greetings to you old friend...
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Literature
Shadows of Addiction
My Addiction haunts me
Always stalking
reminding
listening
watching
taunting
me
My Shadow is tainted
Slinking away
whispering
hiding
bleeding
crying
alone
My Pain is alive
Always there
creeping
pounding
growing
fading
again
My World is controlled
Forever taunted
unforgiving
stabbing
mocking
longing
life
My Thoughts still reside
So ashamed
feeling
stewing
failing
dyeing
always
My Addiction has shadows
Never alone
demanding
pleading
begging
needing
release
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Literature
Like Fire
Hatred
Like Fire
So Deadly
Painful
Evil
Life destroyer
One in the same
No love
No peace
Unforgivable
Never forgotten
Like Fire
New beginnings
Better generation
Pave the future
Once again loved
No more pain
Burns heal
Hatred can be stop
Just Like Fire
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Literature
Stars and Wishes
Wishes and stars
child's play
Fun and games
left to imagination
Saturday cartoons
fade into memories
Inocence and peace
falls away
Carefree days
gone for good
Santa and The Easter Bunny
debunked and forgotten
Happy go lucky
sad and lonley
What a World we Live in
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Literature
Congratulations Society
Look at me,
What do you see?
Smiles, laughs, goofs?
Used to be, Poof!
Now the girl you all loved,
Well shes gone, pushed and shoved
Over the edge, over the brink
Forever dead, now what to think?
Who's fault, where to place blame?
Him, her, you, them it's all the same
However put, my faith is destroyed
Tossed into the void
Along with my innocence, stolen
My very essence woven
Into "Adulthood"
Wonderful, always wished I could
Now turned stone
Surrounded and alone
Grew up
To give up
Individual, independent thought
That was so hard fought
For, only to be lost quicker
Than siblings bicker
Bitter and hard
Feelings bared
Sneaky, uncaring, unforgiving, disdaneful
What a miracle!
Behind every vindictive little bitch
Is a lost child, pushed into the ditch
For far to long
Always put in the wrong
Stabbed too many times in the back
Reasoning always lacked
Never again will I care
Life's not fair
Nice people get stepped on
Sincerity's only a con
Why should I live in the past
Worlds changing fast
Why
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Literature
Finally
Happiness is overrated
Love is said to be cliched
Relationships are unnecesary
This is the 'norm'
But I say normal is overrated
Love is beautiful
Relationships are wonderful
If they're with someone special
Like you
Though there have been roadblocks
They're tumbling down
I'm finally with you
And you with me
Finally I have you in my arms
When we're apart
All I think about is you
I miss you
I'll see you soon
Finally,
After all that's happened
I take closure in the knowing
The knowing that you're there
IT seems to lessen the heartach
Of not being at your side
Even if but a moment
I used to laugh at them,
But sappy love songs
And romantic movies
Why, they explain it best
I understand now,
Because I finally have you
And as corny as it is,
It's true.
And I couldn't be happier
I know you feel the same
Though it's not easy
Good things never are,
But when you're on my mind,
I can't help but smile
Inside, and out.
I finally have someone,
Someone who cares
Who doesn't judge me
Or my human imperfec
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Literature
Freedom And Love
FREEDOM
      AND
LOVE
Freedom is coveted
few truely have it
Everyone wants it
claims they 'need' it
Teens scream for it
refuse to behave without it
We won't live with it
can't live without it
How many crave it
who will do anything
Anything for a glimpse
a glimpse of what was won
Years ago, with blood
what we belive aside
It can't be denied
that the bloodshed for freedom
Hasn't ended, just paused
years go by without a drop
A flood of crimson emerges
hearts that will never beat
Familys torn apart
children orphaned, alone
And for what?
the freedom we squabble over
How many must die
before we realize
We already posses what we require
love
At times it may be hard to find
but it's always there
Babies cry for it
girls weep for it
Dress up there bodies for it
boys typically run from it
We all want it
we all crave it
We all fight for it
people die for it
Freedom and Love,
they're really not so different,
Are they?
but at what cost?
How much are you willing to pay
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Keep busy, they say
Don't dwell, they say
Just do, they say
Don't think, they say
It is so easy, to talk
So easy to observe
Easy to know 'everything'
To give advice
Not realizing
I try to stay busy
I do my best to not dwell
It's not easy
I can't just do and not think
Believe me, I've tried
Creating helps
Writing, painting, drawing
Great outlets
Working myself half to death
Perfect for blocking
But motivation disappears
Lack of creativity
Sinking in
Mundane jobs don't help
When you lie awake
Fatigue doesn't matter
If you can't sleep
Smiling won't work
But it fools
Fake laugh, they're at ease
They're satisfied
Thinking 'she's ok'
Maybe they care
Maybe just self righteous
Either way, it's easier
I can't handle the looks
Dealt with long enough
They don't get it
Just talk, they swear
It gets better, they swear
Others have it worse, they swear
You're not alone or special, they swear
I've tried talking, doesn't help
When, when does it get better?
I know others have it worse
I know I'm not alone or special.
I am neither unique or important
I know this, don't remind me
My whole life I've known
Everyday I'm reminded
Tell me more
What else do you know about me?
Please, let me know
That's not what I ment, they say
I just care about you, they say
I'm here for you, they say
Always, they say
Really, so what do you mean?
Some care, belittling me, great friend
Where were you, when I asked for you?
Always, only when convenient
They swear, they say
They smile, they nod
They think, they pretend
I know, they don't
It starts out small
Something so simple
So pointless
Nothing

It's never really gone
Hiding behind smiles
Bursting out
Again

Gone for weeks, months
I'm safe, no
Bad again
Naturally

I know it's there
Everyone knows it
It's ignored
Always

Some are showing concern
I can't deny
Nor confirm
Lie

It will always be
Always bad again
Not alright
Pretending

I'm accustomed here alone
Not really, true
Feels like
Normal

Years pass on continuously
Life goes on
Blood flows
Out

I am still here
Still helpless alive
Never alone
Hatred

It's been bad again
Here for awhile
I'm fine
Promise
It's ok, I'm alright
I know you're worried about my fight
But I'm so used to it, it's comical
The pain I feel, it's lyrical
I'm struggling now, it's true
But with every cut, I feel less blue
More red, yes
But less depressed
I'm sorry my self hate makes you sad
But it's not all bad
I'll be ok eventually
Albeit, reluctantly
I've never been normal or sane
I know this, and beat myself up in disdain
I hate speaking of my inner demons
They're always yelling, screaming
I feel if I talk, they win
I cry, they grin
I don't want to push that on anyone
It's why I lock myself away and run
I know you care, and only want to help
But please, don't worry yourself
I'm not something to dwell upon
I am only me, a no one
In this spiteful race
Nothing I can't face
I'll be ok, I'll be fine
Thank you though, for seeing the signs
I'm depressed again
But I thank you for being there, my friend
Thank you for being there, my friend
I just don't want you to worry...
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Current Residence: U.S.A.
Favourite genre of music: all
Favourite style of art: poetry/ceramics
MP3 player of choice: ipod nano
Skin of choice: mine
Favourite cartoon character: taz
Personal Quote: Just because im dead doesnt mean im not alive and just because im alive doesnt mean im not dead
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Hey guys...just downloaded the app so I can get on again. I miss and need this...I seem to be falling and failing again I don't know how or why but I am...I feel lost again. Back to not sleeping again,..among other things. Will leave it at that. Bear with me please ok?

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